What is new????????

Well I can honestly say that life is moving way too fast. I look at Sadie & tear up at the thought of her turning 2. I see such a beautiful young woman in Skylar & I want to rewind her so I can savour her for a few more years.

I feel like my whole life right now is my girls & I am trying to put that into balance but that is really hard. I waited so long for my family that it is hard for me to take a step back & ensure that I get time - I don't want to miss anything.

I marvel at other Mom's who dress their kids well, take them to sports, feed them right, clean their homes, work out, look great & have date nights. I honestly cannot figure out how to do it all. I fall into bed at night & can't remember what I did half an hour ago. I have a stack of books I am dying to read on my nightstand that are gathering dust. I can't keep my eyes open long enough to get through the first page.

And I am continually thinking of things I am missing - taking pictures, writing in Sadies baby book, organizing Sky's school work, returning calls, seeing friends, taking video's of the girls during "Lussier after dinner dance hour", washing those hand prints off of the window, mirror, tub, wall, fridge, cabinet, door - - - and the carpet! I am embarassed to even have someone look at it. But how on earth can you clean a carpet every day! My girls are a disaster with spills!

Well just writing this makes me want to take a nap. And it is story time in the Lussiers house. I love my life - I just need to find some balanace!

Prayers

It seems that when good things happen in Skylar's life (like another great report card!) she misses her Mommy Janae more than normal. I think there is a part of her that feels guilty to be so happy without Mom Janae. I hate to see her struggle with this but I also know Sky can handle it. She has been through so much & has weathered so well - much to the credit of great family support.

On the ride home from her Parent/Teacher meeting she expressed she missed Mommy Janae. I told her I missed her too & that hopefully she would be at my birthday party this weekend at the Siemens. She then asked quite a few more questions. Anyone who says that kids don't know things is very wrong. Skylar can pick up on pretty much anything & has no problem asking questions. Which I think is what she had to do to take care of herself & survive. It is hard for her to let go & let me & D'Arcy take care of the things little girls shouldn't have to deal with.

At bed time she got up to say that she really couldn't sleep because she was thinking of Mommy Janae so I suggested we sit & pray for her. Maybe that would make her feel better. So we cuddled up in bed & prayed for Janae. For the beautiful woman she is. For her giggles and her love. For her free spirit and for loving her girls so much that she trusted me & D'Arcy to watch over her little angels. I know that it seems strange to be praying for my daughters Mommy but it gives me great comfort to know that Skylar feels comfortable telling me her innermost feelings & I truly do love Janae so much. I want to be part of the calming for Skylar & to ensure she knows how much Janae loves and adores her. I want her to fall asleep knowing that she is loved so much by Mommy Janae, Mommy Michelle & Daddy D'Arcy. That is what is best for our little angel and I know that we all agree she is what is most important.

Wowee!

Well - it has been way too long.

My last post was the day I was gonna hit the treadmill only to go downstairs to see my husband had dismantled it. And he only re-assembled it tonight after weeks of harassment. So tomorrow is the day - and believe it or not I am actually looking forward to it.

Life has been busy but good. Sort of thankful that tomorrow is back to the normal grind. It has been a very busy weekend. We had a Wall New Years party last night (after several cancellations due to sick kids) - it was a blast & made me realize how amazing my friends are and how blessed I am. The girls had a blast snacking & playing with their "friend-cousins".

D & I had a date night on Saturday night. A yummy dinner at Kelseys sans enfants (without kids) and then to the Roller Derby. It was alot of fun! It was so awesome to spend time with my honey & just relax. Thank you to Grandma & Grandpa Siemens for coming in & watching the girls & saving us a small fortune in babysitting $$$$.

Been thinking alot about life & where I am at. Turning the big 40 in a few weeks & it has made me very sappy & thought provoked. Alot has happened in 2 years more than I could ever have imagined - two beautiful girls. I have been very focused on them & I am thinking I now need to take care of me a bit more to ensure I am around to see their futures. And yes - that means hopping on that treadmill tomorrow!

Wish me luck . . . . .

Treadmill

Today is the day. I will get on the treadmill. I will. Today. As soon as Sadie is down for her nap I will head down to the treadmill. I will. Go down to the treadmill.

Update to come. . . . .

It Takes A Village . . .

I have come to realize that my girls need so much more than just Mom & Dad.

Sadie lights up when Grandpa Murchison comes to play. She can't get enough of him. I am able to sneak away for a bit & she is thrilled I let her have Grandpa all to herself. She adores him & I am pretty sure he adores her just as much.

Skylar loves to go to Baba Lussiers to play. Baba gives her 100% of her attention & will do anything Skylar asks her to play. She comes home so happy to have had time with Baba - all to herself. And Grandma & Grandpa Siemens - they are Skylar's world. She loves them more than life itself & I am so happy she has them to love her & spoil her. She feels so special when she is with them & that is exactly how she should feel!

The girls also love their cousins. I love seeing Sadie & Kylee chase each other & giggle. Jayden follow Skylar around to see what she is up to. Fin feeling all important because he is no longer the baby - Sadie is. And Chloe, Owen & Skylar running around & playing video games. I love that they have this family connection. I fondly remember my cousins & still love them all.

We are blessed to have so many who love our girls so much. Our girls are blessed to have so many play mates & grandparents who love them & care for them.

It truly does take a village - and I love the village I am a part of!

Steven Curtis Chapman

My best friend Melissa let me know earlier this week that one of our favourite artists - Steven Curtis Chapman was coming to Winnipeg. Just last year at a concert we had talked about who we would love to come to Winnipeg & my request was Steven. So to say I am thrilled is putting it mildly.

While ordering the tickets today I visited his website to check out his blog & peek at some of his new songs. I downloaded his new album & have been listening to it all afternoon. Might I add crying as well. A few years ago Steven lost his daughter and this album is all about the journey his family and him have taken with God. His blog & music allow his fans into his inner most thoughts. I am now even more excited to see him in March.

http://www.stevencurtischapman.com/music.htm

Way too Long!

I know it has been way too long since my last post. Unfortunately we have had a long run of the stomach flu around here & I have been living in BARF central. We all know how that is for me. Let's just say when Skylar was sick if I had to be with her I had a bowl for me too. Not good. Poor D'Arcy. Not only was he caring for a sick child but a wife that threw up each time his daughter did. Then I got the stomach flu on New Years Eve. Happy 2011!

D'Arcy & I were discussing how neither of us could remember having the stomach flu & I had never seen D'Arcy throw up until this last week. Ahhhhhh - the memories. Those little ones carry alot of germs!

Life is somewhat back to normal & I was all too happy to tear down the Christmas decorations & get back some much needed space in the house. Thankfully my girls helped purge their rooms before we put away their new toys. I want them to learn early that "stuff" is just "stuff" and it is good to give to others when you get too many.

Here is an updated pic of the girls - I am blessed.